i think you're old enough to know better
but i'm old enough to remember
i won't use that stupid boy forever

don't even trip,
don't get too big for your britches
all these bones been jumping out of your closet
so blasé,
don't turn and look the other way
you want to be a star
you're oh so near, yet oh so far

you'll be back inside before the winter
on that long, long trip before december
don't be throwing stones at the window

don't even trip,
don't get too big for your britches
all these bones been jumping out of your closet
so blasé,
don't turn and look the other way
you've got to have it all
you're oh so near, yet oh so far

And i know that assholes grow on trees but i'm here to trim the leaves
and i'm afraid
that you're still my friend
and you're just a piece of shit
but i can over-look it today
'cause you're still my friend

drop that gun, you aren't my fuckin hero
(don't even trip........)
you think its cool to be a fuckin zero
i can't believe i called you my amigo

speak up now
and one of you is a hundred loud
when you preach,
they'll join you on the roofs and streets
crystal clear
i'm hanging like a chandelier
watching over you
i'll move you from a song to tears

and i know that assholes grow on trees
but i'm going to trim the leaves
and i can say
that you're still my friend
and you're still a piece of shit but i can over-look it today
'cause you're still my friend
and i know that assholes grow on trees
but i'm here to trim the leaves
and i'm afraid
are you still my friend?
and you're still a piece of shit but i can look the other way
'cause you're still my friend

from february 15th, 2005

"reasons to love beeni

she makes sense
she shares my general dislike for most people
she says nice things
she tells me the truth
she put 2 dozen red roses in my hair and made me feel pretty when i was down
we have plans for the future for making people look beautiful"

tell me what i need to do to make this right.

xx

always find it odd to read back through old journal entries. to see what point i was at on various dates and everything. this thing has pretty much everything that's happened to me in recent years. from the last relationship to the current one, from every place i've lived at since moving out of home i think, and friendships old and new.

the funniest things i can think of there are the posts that say 'yeah, 2005 was rubbish but 2006 will be so much better' and all that. and how i was gonna get everything i wanted done in 2006. well, now it's 2007. and almost a year since i posted in this thing last.

myspazz has taken over (same name if anyone feels like adding) and nothing's better, nothing has been accomplished, everything is still the same. if not slightly more fucked. positive frame of mind? i wish. you'd think that 5 years out of teenage years would means i don't succumb to teenage angst, but now it has a new name. quarter life crisis. check out the wiki for it, and it makes sense. just gotta ride through it i guess.

Birth date meme:
Go to Wikipedia and look up your birth day (excluding the year). List three neat facts, two births and one death in your journal, including the year. 

Facts:

1) 1512 - The ceiling of the Sistine Chapel, painted by Michelangelo, is exhibited to the public for the first time.

2) 1969 - After seven years off the top of the charts, Elvis Presley hits number one on the Billboard Hot 100 chart with his song "Suspicious Minds."

3) 1994 - George Lucas leaves the day-to-day operations of his filmmaking business and starts a sabbatical. While on sabbatical, he writes the prequel section of the Star Wars movies.

Births:

1) 1962 - Anthony Kiedis, American singer (Red Hot Chili Peppers)

2) 1958 - Charlie Kaufman, American screenwriter (writer of 'Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind')

Death:

2005 - Michael Piller, American screenwriter (b. 1948-Star Trek writer)-no one more interesting died on my birthday. That could be remedied. *evil laugh*


So. while I was celebrating my 12th birthday, George Lucas was dreaming up Jar Jar Binks.

me gots lots of bargains in the new sale at work.

nin-further down the spiral
nin-broken ep
pearl jam-yield
machine head-from the ashes of empires
machine head-hellalive
cassette boy-micks tape
natural born killers soundtrack
a present for the beeni which i will not speak of here as she reads this, hehe
and a pilates dvd

all for the princely sum of 28 english pounds.
:)

pilates rules. i shall be bendy. yup.

ohoh and beeneeeni, when we live in a big house together at some point in our lives, with the puppy and kitty girls, and dan burrows making us cocktails at every hour, for the times when he's wandered off somewhere, can we have one of these?

http://homepage.mac.com/mmurph/bar/

kthxbye :) xx

From : 
<two1361@aol.com>

Sent : 
26 March 2006 19:24:05


Kit. Thanks. I have actually been invited back to the Download Fest. this year and hope to make it. thanks. Henry



ROLLINS FOR DOWNLOAD!!!!!!

getting promoted makes me smile. so in addition to the raise i'll be getting for the promotion, i'll be set for another raise because i've completed all my goals set in my appraisal. woop!

added to the download lineup

bleeding through.

throwdown.

and

alice in chains.

i want my fucking ticket now please.

one of the sunday staff offered to work the saturday for me. i will be thanking her silently whilst watching metallica.


I'M GOIN' TO DOWNLOAD!

*hops up and down a bit*

I don't mind
stealing bread
From the mouths of decadence...

But I can't feed on the powerless
When my cup's already overfilled
But it's on the table,
The fire's cooking
And they're farming babies,
and the slaves are all working...
Blood is on the table,
the mouths are chokin'...

I'm goin' hungry...

I don't mind
stealing bread
From the mouths of decadence...

But I can't feed on the powerless
When my cup's already overfilled
But it's on the table,
The fire's cooking
And they're starving babies,
And the slaves are all working...
And it's on the table,
The mouths are choking...

I'm going hungry...

i wrote a big note to the sunday staff at work, as they are my only chance of going to download this year. one of the part timers needs money so he's said he'll work the weds thurs fri mon and tues for me, but they need someone extra to cover the saturday, as the part timer who's covering my shifts works on a saturday anyway, so they'll still be down a couple of people. so here's hoping one of them feels like being helpful. either way i'm going anyhoo.

my manager is going to the isle of wight festival. which is the same weekend as download. if it turns out i can't go because of this, i will throw a big strop. yup. and mayhap kill some people.

oh my fucking god.

www.downloadfestival.co.uk

friday headliner. i think i'm gonna cry. :D

http://www.cnn.com/2006/POLITICS/02/12/cheney.ap/

hehehe.

also, an unnamed detainee at a top secret US prison in Afghanistan claims he was forced to listen to eminem and dr dre tracks non stop for 20 days. poor bastard.

and as a tribute to notorious big bringing out a new album despite having been shot dead 9 years ago, 3 people were shot at the album launch party.

hmm. haven't updated for a while. what have i been up to...*consults diary* ah yes.

didn't go to fozzy in the end due to lack of funds, but saw them last year anyhoo, so tis ok. went to see soulfly supported by skindred last tuesday which was pretty sweet. skindred were awesome as before, benji had a theremin. i want one. and over this weekend much alcohol was consumed as it was stevie's birthday, so we all got a little tiddled and went home and watched ross noble.

today zero cipher played at our club, did a damn good job of it too. and i drank some more and played with chris' remote control delorean, which actually makes the noises from back to the future :) and we watched some chavs try to pull a friend of ours, then get chucked out for drinking their own concoction of drink from a coke bottle, talking loudly about how they'd done pills on friday, and finally for pulling the pin out of the fire extinguisher and attempting to use it. bless.

ooh, and my sister had her baby last night, a girl :) she was born all in a rush as my sister had been sent home from the hospital after her waters broke then nothing else happened-decided to run herself a bath and her husband delivered the baby himself in the bath. class. ohoh and we got new rat babies, pictures to follow.

sunday 5th feb. camberley agincourt. fozzy.

chris jericho and rich ward under one grotty little roof? i think i may wet myself with glee. add to that the news that the final bits of money from the old house have come through and i get paid next friday, makes for a reasonable day i guess. :)

princess died yesterday.

so. the celebration of the birth of our lord and saviour jesus h christ went something like this.

woke up. opened presents with stevie's family and got much cool stuff. had christmas lunch and spent time snuggled with the giant cuddly polar bear stevie got me. went to see my mum, she's gotta have more glands removed as the cancer has spread a little more, and radiotherapy in january. chilled out and opened more presents, almost dozed off in front of the telly. went home and had a few drinks with people, recorded a new ringtone for joe (a whole room of us chanting the word 'joe' to the imperial march theme from star wars) and played pictionary mania. well, i watched people play pictionary mania and retired to bed soon after. worked boxing day and went to my sisters in the evening to open presents again, went home to sleep. excitement.

and new years is being spent at taylor's house, i've been made permanent at my job so i can start getting things sorted for the new year, and do the whole 'this year i'll do all the things i want to do and everything will be good' and all that. yeah.

so only 5 days to go. i have done all my shopping, just waiting for a couple of items to arrive in the post. doing last bits of wrapping tomorrow, gotta go get cards for people. worked til 9.30pm for the past two days, and working til 10.30 thursday and then 9.30 friday. get paid on friday though. can't wait for this year to be over. served my ex housemate at work today. wasn't sure how to deal with it, so spoke to him like i didn't know him. gonna go bed now i think.